February Stars

i hate february.
probably year after year the worst month.
everything bad happens.
i feel like shit.
and now that no one even thinks of me and i'm left standing out in the rain while everyone else is happy together.
and now i don't know who to believe between the 2 people in the world i trust the most.
i'm getting different stories about the same issue from the people who have always been there for me, and i feel torn in half and don't know what to believe.
for all you that doubt me, who don't think i'm fucking good enough, who pretend to care, who lie to my face and stab me in the back, who don't want me, who are all nice when we're alone but the opposite in public, and who love to watch me fall; watch out because you'll all see what you missed out on before, and when you all want me back, i'll be packed up and gone because the long winters are for weeping, but in the summer you'll all see me shine.

"weather changes moods"-- Kurt Cobain

here's a song by the foo fighters that describes my february's perfectly, it's called "february stars". listen to it here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=80t9jVX_ufQ
lyrics:
Hanging on
Here until I'm gone
Right where I belong
Just hanging on

Even though
Watched you come and go
How was I to know
You'd steal the show

One day I'll have enough to gamble
I'll wait to hear your final call
And bet it all

I'm hanging on
Here until I'm gone
Right where I belong
Just hanging on

Even though
I pass this time alone
Somewhere so unknown
It heals the soul

You ask for walls
I'll build them higher
We'll lie in shadows of them all
I'd stand but they're much too tall
And I fall

February stars
Floating in the dark
Temporary scars
February stars

February stars
Floating in the dark
Temporary scars
February stars

February stars
Floating in the dark
Temporary scars
February stars

February stars
Floating in the dark
Temporary scars
February stars